tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75871253369077372912024-03-13T06:36:11.400-06:00Its an EpidemicZannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-43727562159344552952010-04-24T10:49:00.000-06:002010-04-24T10:49:13.469-06:00chubby<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">sorry you guys aren't allowed to see my boobies.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9MgFtOg9gI/AAAAAAAAAEA/50YzC6cbbdY/s1600/1145758657.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9MgFtOg9gI/AAAAAAAAAEA/50YzC6cbbdY/s320/1145758657.png" tt="true" /></a></div>im tired. anxious. what is this.<br />
i swear this sweater makes me look fatter than i already am! ]:Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-11398332427794153562010-04-23T21:58:00.000-06:002010-04-23T21:58:11.593-06:00image galore!!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9JqGltAzfI/AAAAAAAAAD4/sfGY_ccnhF4/s1600/1343819202.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9JqGltAzfI/AAAAAAAAAD4/sfGY_ccnhF4/s320/1343819202.png" tt="true" /></a></div>circle lenses are starting to irritate my eyes, i should stop wearing them. <br />
i was about to go shopping with my mom to<strong> hong kong city market</strong>!<br />
i decided to take a quick - pic.<br />
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as days past, i dont know what else i feel for you. im still thinking if it is negative or positive, or just in between. but i say this now, what i do feel for you is nice. when you say my name, its nice -- i feel <em><span style="color: #e06666;">butterflies</span> </em>or a type of gut-hugging sensation. its wow!<br />
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i just wish you knew. i wish you would tell me how you felt. i want to know. i dont want to regret anything anymore. no, i have done that too much. but with you, no, i dont want to loose this opportunity. <br />
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<strong>i wish i wish~</strong>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-46089538482947298902010-04-22T18:05:00.000-06:002010-04-22T18:05:13.890-06:00Weekends herefinallly i have been dying!<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9A6BVr3pxI/AAAAAAAAADo/kH7QhcK222I/s1600/1348144992.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9A6BVr3pxI/AAAAAAAAADo/kH7QhcK222I/s320/1348144992.jpg" wt="true" /></a></div>I went to a resturaunt today, great time. I thought the light looked neat here see how it sort of flares?<br />
i also took one of those 'creative' pictures. i was being inspired.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9Dj5RdEVTI/AAAAAAAAADw/liOUhC8dlSs/s1600/1847631916.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S9Dj5RdEVTI/AAAAAAAAADw/liOUhC8dlSs/s320/1847631916.png" wt="true" /></a></div>i was lazy to wear any makeup so i only wore eyeliner for the basic.<br />
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homework homework homework! <br />
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im waiting for matthew to get on. that fooker.<br />
ill see you guys later.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-32907238859379006452010-04-20T19:35:00.000-06:002010-04-20T19:35:26.019-06:00i am utterly tired.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S85WS0zDoII/AAAAAAAAADg/x9l6rbZKb9E/s1600/scarfmode.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S85WS0zDoII/AAAAAAAAADg/x9l6rbZKb9E/s320/scarfmode.png" wt="true" /></a></div>Matthew cannot make me any more happy. well he can but he made my day along with my "sisters".<br />
<br />
I have been working on homework im slacking off too much,<br />
so i wont be on during weekdays. i might be on for about an hour but thats it.<br />
im tired and needtofocus on my school work. you should understand correct?<br />
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i have replied to my formspring but it may take a while to come up.<br />
i will be on aim so catch me there but im going to be on away alot.<br />
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hope you guys had a wonder full day~!Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-15116823893682216312010-04-20T19:29:00.003-06:002010-04-20T19:31:12.809-06:00SISTERS REUNITEQuadruplets. <br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S85U7KvCR7I/AAAAAAAAADY/vUG9Lbnpmmk/s1600/YESS.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S85U7KvCR7I/AAAAAAAAADY/vUG9Lbnpmmk/s320/YESS.png" wt="true" /></a></div>Annie. Joy. Cathy. Zanni.<br />
<br />
Joy is faternal ROFL<br />
<3<br />
Cathy is married to Levi. So she is part of the family.<br />
THERE IS ALWAYS ROOM FOR MORE. GIRLS OR GUYS <br />
Diana will have alot of in laws.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-74362642075900861772010-04-18T13:08:00.002-06:002010-04-18T13:08:38.710-06:00Vanity<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l134lwsJPZ1qb9ifvo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l134lwsJPZ1qb9ifvo1_500.jpg" width="320" wt="true" /></a></div>Vanity.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-41836572754977168052010-04-18T11:12:00.000-06:002010-04-18T11:12:13.828-06:00Cyanide and Happiness!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l10bgbISvf1qamgijo1_500.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="259" src="http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l10bgbISvf1qamgijo1_500.png" width="320" wt="true" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><strong>I LOL'ED</strong></div>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-36341094743791596042010-04-18T11:09:00.000-06:002010-04-18T11:09:33.225-06:00I camwhored again todaythe glasses arent real. ]: <br />
i popped in my circle lenses and dressed up.<br />
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</div>Tremors hit me again. but! i do like how my eyes are funny looking.<br />
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i also tried on some new lenses<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8s7sZJkuVI/AAAAAAAAADQ/gNK2E20ayiM/s1600/eye.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8s7sZJkuVI/AAAAAAAAADQ/gNK2E20ayiM/s320/eye.png" wt="true" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #0b5394;">ANGLE BLUE!</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8s7r2kldcI/AAAAAAAAADI/5VV6FHQje9o/s1600/1847631925.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8s7r2kldcI/AAAAAAAAADI/5VV6FHQje9o/s320/1847631925.png" wt="true" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I like black and white leave me alone LOL.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">today started out well! apparently i fail at being chinese HAHA so diana says. F U <strong>F U.</strong></div>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-86446727896827133812010-04-17T19:54:00.000-06:002010-04-17T19:54:09.537-06:00Tumblr is great todayI fucking love my <strong>sweet thang</strong>. aka MATTHEWWWWW<33<br />
i swear, hes like my tumblr crush now LOL.<br />
i have a nice name for kain it's<em> cuddle bear</em> <br />
and for brandy its SUPER SEXY HUNEY BUNCH or SSHB.<br />
LOLLL<br />
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i love giving out nicknames to friends.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-41505121010743439312010-04-17T13:37:00.001-06:002010-04-17T14:01:53.206-06:00Some recent picturesthese are some, the rest will be on tumblr later!<br />
this is only a sneak.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8oNgOF6t1I/AAAAAAAAAB8/rqBJEPdYsI0/s1600/1847537634.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8oNgOF6t1I/AAAAAAAAAB8/rqBJEPdYsI0/s320/1847537634.png" wt="true" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">This was in my ghetto school, obviously!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">i wrote down my url again just incase people STILL don't trust me~</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">isn'tit cool how i took a picture in school? hehe the teacher didn't notice a thing.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">BLIND MUCHO?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8oNmtEm-KI/AAAAAAAAACE/7P5_4S4fKn4/s1600/1847531393.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S8oNmtEm-KI/AAAAAAAAACE/7P5_4S4fKn4/s320/1847531393.png" wt="true" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">this was about yesterday?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">the rest are on facebook! add me! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #3d85c6;"><strong>http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?cropsuccess&id=100000960703808#!/profile.php?id=100000960703808</strong></span></div>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-24056524661519679482010-04-17T13:10:00.000-06:002010-04-17T13:10:14.425-06:00aim!i have been planning on making aim, and which i have not done yet LOL<br />
im sorry, but ill get to it someday!<br />
<br />
but as of now, i haven't been updating anyone with my pictures, so there will be a mini spam!<br />
i have officially worn makeup and circle lenses.<br />
my hair is still whack though!<br />
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get ready! ^__^<br />
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<strong>mucho love<33</strong>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-45349753956639921342010-04-15T16:03:00.000-06:002010-04-15T16:03:37.551-06:00You need to gtfo.don't steal my backgrounds that i made for myself.<br />
don't steal images i created.<br />
don't fucking COPY my layout and shit.<br />
<br />
wth? can't you be creative yourself with all the things you do?<br />
damn, you're stupid.<br />
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yeah im being mean but when it comes to these type of shit i get very pissed.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-64782765925790433442010-04-12T21:58:00.001-06:002010-04-12T21:58:15.743-06:00Everyone,Must think before they speak.<br />
Including meZannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-80247576158466521532010-04-10T17:26:00.001-06:002010-04-10T17:28:34.889-06:00note out!!if you guys remember narsha mao.<br />
she is a fake, yes.<br />
the people she is reblogging are fake too.<br />
why else would she reblog them from no where and their all pretty and the quality of the pictures are "wretch-like."<br />
they all reblog each other, and they came out of no where.<br />
i don't think it's just a coincident.<br />
<br />
how do i know narsha mao is fake?<br />
this is awkward but as i was surfing for a girl (tea, long long time ago) i came across her. so i am now oddly suspicious of her "friends"<br />
i have been observing her. not in a stalker way, but she has not been on as often, and her new 'friends' appeared out of no where.<br />
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<a href="http://kokorox3.tumblr.com/">http://kokorox3.tumblr.com/</a><br />
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<a href="http://-430-.tumblr.com/">http://-430-.tumblr.com/</a><br />
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i am not sure about them, they're just oddly suspicious as said.<br />
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<a href="http://narshaaa.tumblr.com/">http://narshaaa.tumblr.com/</a> <br />
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please don't think im holding a grudge or hate her, i just want her out of tumblr. whenever i see a fake, i feel bad for those who "like" them. <br />
as for i know how it feels to 'betray' someone.<br />
i don't like that.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-10203965048026148342010-04-09T20:20:00.001-06:002010-04-09T20:20:05.837-06:00yuh<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7_gLgdURdI/AAAAAAAAAB0/tG85d6lfnQU/s1600/1343864734.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7_gLgdURdI/AAAAAAAAAB0/tG85d6lfnQU/s320/1343864734.jpg" wt="true" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I really like my scarf.</div>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-15026296739331141782010-04-09T19:23:00.001-06:002010-04-09T19:32:00.270-06:00Stupid haters on tumblrif its over the internet that's pointless. get over it. No ones want to hear that shit on here.<br />
if it's your "used to be friend", then move on! You're being a bad friend too just by talking about them like that. saying shit about them to other people. that's horrible! <br />
if you're one of those people who listen and believe, thats wrong. dont hate someone because your "friend" hates them too.<br />
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if it was me, i would've just said the alternative and back away. its their fight not yours.<br />
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you're being a very bad friend if they don't even know why or that you are, and if it's about someone move on or ignore them. write about them somewhere else. <br />
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im <strong>tired </strong>of reading all these post about that.<br />
don't get butt hurt but really, just move the fuck on.<br />
you're wasting your time hating someone over the internet.<br />
im seeing this shit everywhere and i dislike reading hateful things.<br />
!!!!!!!!!!!!Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-89143402560855021762010-04-08T17:35:00.001-06:002010-04-08T17:35:58.017-06:00Only reblogging on tumblr!reblogging and posting up maybe portions of my life and picturesZannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-39551697132461452882010-04-05T21:06:00.003-06:002010-04-05T21:25:59.984-06:00No makeup<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7qk9_S2vKI/AAAAAAAAABs/P2znMztwleE/s1600/1487289045.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" nt="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7qk9_S2vKI/AAAAAAAAABs/P2znMztwleE/s320/1487289045.jpg" /></a></div>i am only wearing lenses. in the nude.<br />
forgot to add!<br />
i left my camera on the table and took the photo.<br />
thanks those who suggested!Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-84627947240456012382010-04-05T21:04:00.000-06:002010-04-05T21:04:38.069-06:00To those who don't know what Essential tremor is<div><strong>Here is a definition</strong></div><br />
<div></div>a progressive neurological disorder whose most recognizable feature is a tremor of the arms that is apparent during voluntary movements such as eating and writing. This type of tremor is often referred to as "kinetic tremor." The tremor may also occur in the head (neck), jaw and voice as well as other body regions, with the general pattern being that the tremor begins in the arms and then spreads to these other regions in selected patients. Women are more likely to develop the head tremor than are men. Other types of tremor may also occur, including postural tremor of the outstretched arms, intentional tremor of the arms and rest tremor in the arms. Some patients may have unsteadiness and problems with gait and balance that are above and beyond that due to normal aging<br />
<div></div>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-15127197911345350292010-04-04T09:15:00.000-06:002010-04-04T09:18:24.286-06:00ive heard newsthat il be moving again within a couple days.<br />oh nice.<br />this means an actual fresh new start.<br />but making friends will be difficult /:<br /><br />its okay though, ill think of someway.<br />this is infact my first time moving.<br /><br />tell me, those who moved before, is it hard?<br />i haven't had the slightest feeling of it yet.<br /><br />im also dying my hair a fuchsia color.<br />it'll turn out red - purply - brown.<br /><br />ill be messing with my makeup today and circle lense.<br />good morning to everyone.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-27804693613602914212010-04-03T18:15:00.000-06:002010-04-03T18:19:19.303-06:00im not a fake.<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7fahYVTutI/AAAAAAAAABA/9HDE9YnWUYQ/s1600/proof.png"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5456069740585007826" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7fahYVTutI/AAAAAAAAABA/9HDE9YnWUYQ/s320/proof.png" /></a> im not a fake.<br /><br />my camera doesn't take "Text" images well. it only holds about 8 megapixels.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-41804598579993635492010-04-03T16:43:00.001-06:002010-04-03T16:45:29.255-06:00I went out with some of my buddies today<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7fEqV5pUzI/AAAAAAAAAA4/AED3gu70H2o/s1600/blaccck.png"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5456045705295123250" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_zmanBgNazWY/S7fEqV5pUzI/AAAAAAAAAA4/AED3gu70H2o/s320/blaccck.png" /></a><br /><div>i decided to wear makeup like them too</div><br /><div></div>click for a bigger image. im beggining to accept my face more, despite all the comments from people who made fun of my tremor, shortness and eyes.<br /><br />i tried my bets not to shake, so i took it as quickly as i could.<br />it worked well.<br />i should do it more oftenZannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-77020562023200266112010-04-03T14:14:00.000-06:002010-04-03T14:17:06.133-06:00im growing out my hairthe images are terribly shaky thoughZannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-66203500184847682942010-04-03T14:05:00.000-06:002010-04-03T14:09:54.913-06:00as of now,i want to stay away from this online world for a while.<br />im thinking about keeping it a distance, i will still be on, of course restarting.<br />but i want to give you guys a break from me.<br /><br />if you have noticed, the way i type and talk has differ from before.<br />i dont usuall type like this, but as of now, this is how im typing.<br /><br />i don't want to give out any more lies, im serious.<br />along with this, ill use my advantage of keeping a distance from the internet.<br />ill be focusing mor eon my studies like before, hoping to go into a good college.<br /><br />i hope you guys understand me. im out of words about everything, i can not explain anymore. the memories must be left in the past -- for me atleast.<br /><br />we shall start a new, yes?<br /><br /><em>hello, i am Zaneta Shou, Zanni is perfered. </em>Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7587125336907737291.post-39496954120497537782010-04-02T22:30:00.000-06:002010-04-02T23:04:35.034-06:00Essential Tremor, the real me.<span style="color:#ff6666;">Essential Tremor</span> is a nervous system disease that i apparently have<br />i devoloped it actually, and signs were shown to me a year and a couple months ago<br /><br />almost 90% of my pictures are <strong>"shaky"</strong><br />and i hated it.<br />It would either deform my face, because sometimes i have a sudden "jerking" movement, but with essential tremor, it's worse.<br />and i couldn't wear makeup until now.<br /><br />i had very low self esteem through out my highschool life. I was very shy too.<br />older kdis would make fun of me because i was "asian" or because i was short.<br />I wasn't lying about being 5'1.<br /><br />all of my friends wore makeup during then, they either began wearing makeup or they've been wearing it.<br />i was the only one, i swear to god, who haven't worn makeup.<br />so i felt terribly out of their league.<br />they would get dates, while i hope someday a guy would just come up to me and say hi.<br /><br />i have to admit, i was very passive and kind.<br />i guess i still am.<br />i just wanted to "<strong>fit in</strong>" rather than do nothing.<br /><br />so i resulted into <span style="color:#33cc00;">online life.</span><br />it only started a couple months ago, when i was learning about myspace and IMVU.<br /><br />everything changed for me. my self confidence went up a little, but not as much as i wanted.<br />i wanted more attention.<br />i wanted more spark.<br />i wanted to be liked and feel "popular".<br /><br /><strong>i wanted to fit in.</strong><br /><br />a big mistake i made. looking through wretch albums, hoping to find a gorgeous girl who wouldnt be oddly suspicious either.<br /><br />i found the perfect girl.<br /><strong>I found Tea.</strong><br /><br />i took her pictures, i started a new myspace, i met my first friend, gua, and then levi, and then more and more.<br />people said i look gorgeous.<br />it made me feel great.<br />i wanted more, i was unexecptionally greedy.<br /><br />tumblr was the next target.<br />i made great friends.<br />then, i didnt want to loose them<br />but what were they for?<br />were they here for looks?<br />Then somone had an crush on me.<br />how did i react? what was i supposed to say?<br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">i liked him too. i didn't want to hurt him.</span><br />i was beggining to resent what i did.<br />i was beggining to feel lonley again, knowing most of them came for the looks, <strong>the looks i will never achieve.</strong><br /><br />months past by, i began logging on less and less.<br />i didn't want to continue.<br />i wanted it to end.<br />then <strong>narsha mao</strong> came.<br /><br /><em>who was she?</em><br />everyone thought she was me.<br /><br />she wasn't.<br />but she is a fake.<br />i've seen her on wretch when surfing for Tea.<br />how come i didn't reveal her?<br />i wanted her to feel the pain.<br />but at the same time, she was probably feeling how i felt.<br /><em>unloved by looks.</em><br /><br />i gave her a few lucky months.<br />until, i decided to rat her out along with me.<br />people already suspected, so why not.<br /><br />she'll endure great pain when people find her, so i gave her a lucky free be.<br />yes she is fake, but she isn't me.<br />if she was me, i would've quited tumblr by now as me.Zannihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596170866303129436noreply@blogger.com0